Kristen, Our Angel

I so miss you and sure that you've heard me all day telling you that i miss you and love you so much... I so want to be with you right now.... I love you Angel....

Love, Mom

As I fight myself to get through this depression, I can only find comfort in knowing your a beautiful angel with large beautiful wings, flying about the heavens, caring for the small children, meeting friends, and keeping family in stiches with your pranks and jokes.  How i long the day to hold you in my arms... As I sit here alone, i feel your gentle touch on the top of my head, as you use to do often when you would be making your trips up and down the stairs.... I so love you... Watch for your ballons tomorrow as we will release them to the heavens for you to have knowing that we love you and miss you so much... I love you baby girl.... Love, Mom

24 years old today... seems as if it was yesterday when I held you in my arms for the first time, loving the site of your beautiful face, your love, your warmth.  What would you be doing right now?... well I would have hoped that you would travel, maybe in the weiner mobile, got your nursing degree so you could choose one of the best / worse nursing homes for your poor old Mom... Maybe even have bought your first home, hopefully it was close to your Mom as I as so very lonely without being with you.  I so want to hear your voice one more time, even that "Mother" when you were mad or wanted my attention would be a beautiful sound to my ears right now.  Just a little noise, a little smile, a little hug, dirty clothes on the floor, messy room, or wet towels left on the bathroom floor would be welcomed, just if you were here with me again.  I love you so very much as you will forever know.  I fought for you from day one, was the first to hold you, feed you, and even was the one to kiss your boo boos' when you fell down.. for one more day, one more week, a life time more... I would give anything.  How I love you and miss you... I hope your sharing your birthday with your Ma and Papaw and getting into lots of trouble as I know you would.. I will forever have you in my hearts and nobody will ever be able to take you away or keep us apart.  I hope to be with you soon... I love you birthday Angel... Love you... Love Mom

The sun is setting, the days are shorter, colder and the leaves are so beautiful.  Your favorite holiday is upon us and the memories flow back to me.  Your last Halloween you decorated the table at the end of the driveway in hopes to scare a few treaters with your scarey hands and creepy, gooey eyeballs.  Your black cape hangs in the same place as I cant find it in me to move your things. Life is just not the same without you in my world and I feel as if my front is wearing off... I cant keep hiding the pain, hiding the feelings that I so want to be with you and not anyone else... Your the only thing that I have ever wished for from the time I was a small girl wanting a beautiufl baby girl.. you were it... I fought for you from the very begining up until the day I watched you make your final exit from our home. I held you as a baby, held you as a young girl and as a beautiful young lady.. and Im so sorry that I wasnt there for you at the very end...... I love you as my heart aches each and every day.... I love you so much baby angel... Im waiting for the sign that you want me to join you.. tell me when your ready... as Im ready any time... I love you... Love ... Mom

I hate not having you here!!! Why did you leave me????? Im lonely, sad, my heart is empty without you.. I love you baby girl..

Love you, Mom

Each and every day goes by one by one and I still hold on to you with my heart and wish I were holding you in my arms. The pain somedays is so strong that I want to leave the pain and be with you.. but are you ready for me?.. I still see your face, your smiles, your frowns, your beautiful baby blue eyes ... the pain will never go away.. as my love for you will be forever!.. I love you baby.. School started and the memories pour back to the days of pre-school,  you holding on so tight to my neck not letting go not wanting me to leave you and the tears still come along with my smiles of your beautiful face.. .. I love you baby.. I hope that your new life is happy, free of pain,... know I love you and will be with you soon.. forever in my heart... Mom

My heart is heavy and broken as another Fathers Day, goes by without you in our arms.. the nightmares are still there of loosing you.. but the dreams of holding you forever seem so real. I so miss you and love you and am counting the days until we are together.. all my love to you forever my angel..

Love Mom

Hello Baby Angel.. so sorry that I havent written to you .. but you know that I talk to you each and every day and hold you so tight in my heart.. things have been crazy around here as I told you yesterday.. Im trying to help a boy named Brian and just can get through to him... just as I couldnt reach you either.. I feel as if Im a failure!.. What to do?... i love you baby!

One more year gone, living without your smile, your laugh, your love....  I will never forget you and Amy running down the street in your underware, that I still have on your bear, banging on pans and yelling Happy New Year.  You didnt care if anyone was asleep... you just wanted to celebrate... I hope there will be celebration when we are together again.. I love you very much... Happy New Year baby angel...

Love, Mom

We made it through another year without you... and how??? I really dont understand. The days will never be the same without you and my heart will never be full with love until I hold you in my arms again.  I love you baby Angel... As you look upon us you will forever see the light shinning bright from our home to you.. I love you... and will forever.... Love, Mom...