Kristen, Our Angel

From the beginning:

May 9th, 1985 the first time that I set eyes on that beautiful little angel inside of me. Oh how I always dreamed of a baby girl dressed in ribbons lace and bonnets, and my dream had finally came true.

 

Just hours old I just cant seem to keep my eyes off of the most beautiful, precious thing that I've ever seen.  The love of my life! Kristen Lea Douglas was my Thanksgiving Day gift.  After delivery Dr. Riza handed me my beautiful baby girl (we were told was going to be a boy), and I just couldn't stop looking at her. She looked so much like my niece Kelly when she was born. Little round face, so red from all the force of birth, but so spectacular. The miracle of birth, the miracle of the little baby girl that all my life I had dreamed of had finally come true, and now I was holding her in my arms.

"If there ever comes a day when we can't be together, keep me in your heart, I'll stay there forever." ~ Winnie the Pooh

Every night I rocked my KD to sleep, while singing House at Pooh Corner.  She was about 4 years old before we stopped rocking, as she was to heavy for me to pick up off my lap and take to bed.  She loved Pooh.  She would give me her Pooh when I was feeling bad, and say "Momma, hold my Pooh and he will make you feel all better." I will never forget the day that it was raining outside, we were in a hurry to get to daycare, and Pooh fell out of KD's arms into a big puddle of water.  We had to go inside and wash and dry him, and wrap him in dry blankets before we could leave. Always caring, kind and so full of love!

DEAR DAUGHTER

You're in my heart forever
You're with me every day,
But I'd give anything to hold you,
If only I could have my way.

This journey has been difficult
There's so much that I miss.
Your laughter, friendship, our long talks,
But most of all, your kiss.

I never thought I could go on
Without you when you died,
And I tried to understand my guilt
As my pain began to ease inside.

Yes, I'm learning to live without you
I know that you'd want me to try.
I go to groups, and read my books
I take long walks, and cry.

Then, I draw upon your love and feel
Your zest for life each day,
And find it comforting, knowing,
You'd want me to live my life that way.

I know there'll never be a day
Where you're not close at heart,
That I'd wish that things were different
so we'd never be apart.

For you truly were a gift to us
And in my heart you'll stay,
Forever, until we're together again
In the spirit world one day

Kristen Lea turns 1 today, November 28th, 1986

 

Toledo Zoo 1986

Our favorite things to do was to visit the zoo.  Kristen & Bryon had such a wonderful time each and every time.

The happiest days of my life were spent with my angel.  Her best friend was and always will be Bryon Kinsman. The two babies spent most of their time together, as they will always be together in heart.

 

Whisper of an Angel

The whisper of an angel
Can open Heaven's gate,
A glimpse of faith and courage
A love strong enough to wait,

Whisper you are safe
Whisper softly, angel love,
My heart is aching so
Needing comfort from above,

Tell me you are with me
Whisper gently in my ear,
"You will always be my mommy"
In the quiet I will hear,

My heart still aches to hold you
I close my eyes and see,
Your face now, two years later
And who you were to be,

Though dreams I once held close
In the distance now, so far
Still you're more than just my child
You're the twinkle in the stars,

So I'll hear your angel whispers
"You never need let go,
Hold me, mommy, close within"
Though the pain and sorrow flow,
One day we shall reunite
Angels whisper words of grace,
And I promise I will hold you
In another time and place.

©1998 by Joanne Cacciatore

 

 

 

One of our favorite places to go was the Childrens Wonderland in Maumee, Ohio.  Our parents always took us each year, and when Kristen was a baby we wanted to continue with the tradition.  I will treasure my moments spent with my angel.

1994, Kristen Lea 9 years old wanted a puppy, and so here is the cute little guy Rocko Delaney Douglas. 6 weeks old, 6 pounds and so much love.  Now, Rocko will be 12 yrs old this year and no girl to love him. We often wondered what would happen to Rocko when Kristen went away to college, and now we know, he will always be here with us being watched by his special girl, now a special angel.

Lots of hard work in having a puppy.  KD, Mom and Stephanie all have to work hard with Rocko to get him trained.

This is the last picture of all of the girls together.  It was taken at Mom's house, November 2002. We were all together for Thanksgiving and Erika & KD's birthdays.

Back Row: KD's Aunt Darla, Me, (Donia, KD's Mom), KD's Aunt Debra   Front Row: KD, Gramma Steele & Erika